Shontelle - Impossible

Feeling Down

Start to blog again, whenever I'm down. It's been like more than few months...I last blogging....tink so.

Things so much complicated now. Donno y? Wondering is it me or just my feeling that I'm feeling this way. For e past 1 week I've been feeling kinda off sad, frustrated and disappointed. Miss Ella & Wawan B'day last week. Feel so bad, paiseh and throughly guilty on that. Everything is set and prepared for by sis and family but I disappoint them by not turning up. And worse.....on that day after work, I and my colleague rush to get e kids Purple colour attire for e bday bash....but.....sigh.....sorry all for disappoint you guys.

I donno but after tat.....i cry quietly not to show it in front of my kids.....cos kids don't like it when i'm crying. this feeling didnt go away till today. I somehow mad, angry and hated it when it happen. Get scolding for the things which in e first place not my entire fault.

To stop thinking about this horrible feeling, I just keep myself bz doing house chores and entertaining my kids nonsense. See I'm starting to cry now thinking about it. I am truly mad. Oh god please give me strength to face all this.