Things so much complicated now. Donno y? Wondering is it me or just my feeling that I'm feeling this way. For e past 1 week I've been feeling kinda off sad, frustrated and disappointed. Miss Ella & Wawan B'day last week. Feel so bad, paiseh and throughly guilty on that. Everything is set and prepared for by sis and family but I disappoint them by not turning up. And worse.....on that day after work, I and my colleague rush to get e kids Purple colour attire for e bday bash....but.....sigh.....sorry all for disappoint you guys.
I donno but after tat.....i cry quietly not to show it in front of my kids.....cos kids don't like it when i'm crying. this feeling didnt go away till today. I somehow mad, angry and hated it when it happen. Get scolding for the things which in e first place not my entire fault.
To stop thinking about this horrible feeling, I just keep myself bz doing house chores and entertaining my kids nonsense. See I'm starting to cry now thinking about it. I am truly mad. Oh god please give me strength to face all this.
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